Where do I even start?
I’ve been promising an update post for months now and have been putting it off for a variety of reasons. At this point, so much has happened that recapping it all would be lengthy, boring and unnecessary – dwelling on the past is exhausting and accomplishes nothing.
The past 90+ days have been exciting, overwhelming, eye-opening, liberating and stressful (among other things) and have taught me more about myself than I ever could have imagined.
As most of you know, my editorial internship recently turned into a part-time position that I couldn’t be more thankful for. I would love nothing more than to pursue a career in journalism and work for a magazine or digital publication of some sort. I’ve fallen head over heels for this industry.
Along with that new position, I took on a second job a few months ago in a different field that had always interested me. It was fun, exciting and completely different than anything I had ever done. It allowed me to leave my serving job and I finally felt like I was wearing my “big girl shoes”.
I was on top of the world.
It was only a matter of weeks before everything started crumbling beneath me. I began to realize how difficult maintaining two jobs that require a physical, mental and emotional investment is. 40+ hours a week plus 25+ hours a week began to take its toll and stress and anxiety set in.
When fleeting moments of stress manifested into anxiety attacks and nervous-breakdowns, I knew. Work had taken over my life and I wasn’t happy. I couldn’t do it all. Something had to give.
Which brings me to today. As of next week, I’ll be back to working one career-focused job and picking up shifts at the restaurant a few nights a week. Do I feel like I took 2 steps forward and 5 steps back? Sometimes. Am I embarrassed that I couldn’t handle it all? A little bit. But I made a choice that allows me to focus whole-heartedly on what I’m passionate about and that’s okay.
The past 3 months brought me back to the idea that Build Your Bliss was founded on; happiness.
It isn’t one-size-fits-all. Life will forever be throwing curveballs and we have to decide whether we want to swerve out of the way or reach out and catch them. You have the power so don’t you ever, ever feel ashamed of the path you choose. You deserve a life filled with happiness and, to achieve that, you must first discover thing things that bring you joy. So, try everything, take chances, make mistakes and then use what you learn to build a world of bliss that you’re truly excited to live in.
Here’s to rediscovering our happy again…