And right when I thought that things were finally getting better, we’re back at square one.
I don’t know what to think, what to say, how to feel…I’m just exhausted. The roller coaster that my mom, sister, and I have been on for the past 10 months feels never-ending. I look back on 2013 and it’s just a giant blur of changes, confusion, and struggle. I wish I could listen to my own advice and focus on all of the good things in my life but sometimes it’s impossible. Sometimes I’m not strong.
I don’t want to talk details (per usual); however, I do have one thing to say…
Addiction is a horrible, horrible disease. It comes in all shapes and sizes and manifests itself in a million different ways. If you have an addictive personality, be careful. If you currently struggle with an addiction, be brave enough to ask for help. If you have a loved one that has allowed addiction to take over their life, be strong. You are not alone. Watching someone crumble under the weight of addiction is heartbreaking and it’s only human for us to reach out and try to help. But you can’t force someone to get healthy. They have to want it. Until then, love them from a distance. Don’t enable them. And don’t let them rob you of your happiness. That’s yours and you damn-well deserve it.
This blog is personal. I’m writing for myself just as much as I’m writing for you. I’m on a journey and I’m opening up about the beautiful and not-so-beautiful aspects of it. My hope is that I’m able to help one person- just one. If I do that, it’s all worthwhile. If I do that, everything makes a little more sense.
Here’s to being strong in the face of pain…